Idle Time

Monday, April 10, 2006

Inspiration is generally fleeting. You can go to bed feeling extremely jazzed about some idea or notion, ready to take on the wolves, and then wake up to a whisper instead of a shout. Suddenly something else takes your attention and you are in need of new motivation when that idea comes around again.

It makes me question the motivation of everyday life. Considering the time I have spent in search of passionate endeavors and worthwhile content for the chapters of my life, and acknowledging that I have held seven jobs (in a variety of fields) since graduating college in 2003, I begin to wonder if people are more often motivated by the pursuit of greatness or necessity. I have begun each job with the hope that I will get closer to understanding and revealing what my innermost core so resoundingly aches for (and why it won't leave me alone). But with each job, after a period of time (usually somewhere around 6 months) I realize that this path is not the one that fits. I have the luxury of being able to change jobs and risk a new endeavor. Does necessity kill one's ability to pursue greatness?

It all sounds like a bunch of philosophical daydreaming, but it's been stuck in my head.