Monday, November 24, 2003

I came home from work today in a eerie mood and was incredibly anxious to write my thoughts out. But the site was down and I decided to clean instead. When life is chaotic, it's at least nice to have your house clean and organized. Makes things that much easier.

Before I came home, I stopped at a park above the harbor and sat down to read for a little bit. This afternoon was cloudy, but in an incredibly atmospheric way. The sky was colorful and extremely big, but still cozy. This little park is one of my favorite places in Newport, and I frequent there often to make calls or eat lunch during work. When I first sat down, a little boy was sitting in a stroller next to his mother and her friend. He said hi to me nearly 11 times. His mother apologized, but I told her I didn't mind. I kept saying hi back, and I'm sure that just provoked him. Then his mother spoke in Russian to her friend for a few minutes and then the three of them moved on. As they left I watched a man in slighly awkward clothing conspicuously place a piece of paper on their now empy park bench, and then walk away. Here's what it said:

Who are you taking to court for all your problems? Parents, brothers, sisters, spouse, kids, teachers, coaches, bosses, politicians, other races, cops, friends, enemies, boyfriend, girlfriend, opposite sex, gangs, and the world. When in actuality, the one who is resp. for your ill feelings is laughing at you in the audience--the devil. he works on your heart by not fighting fair, increasing evil feelings in your heart. Getting you to fight among the world you should be loving. But , you are resp. for the evil you have allowed in your heart. Misery loves company, the devil is going down, are you? Do you want to get back at the devil, the Holy Spirit is the only way. God loves the world more than you will ever know. You are made to glorify God + not yourself. God left an empty part in your heart that the world can't satisfy. He needs your permission to enter your heart. You need God's seal, the Holy Spirit, to know if you are a child of God. To receive the Holy Spirit you need to accept Jesus as your savior for the infection you've allowed in. To give everything that you are, Wholeheartedly to God. Dear Jesus, I believe you are the Son of God + accept you as my savior. I ask that you forgive all my sins + I will serve you this day forward. In Jesus' name I pray, Amen. I welcome you my true brother or sis.

Whoa. Interesting. Well, I do want to get back at the devil but I'm not sure who I'm taking to court. Oh well.

Anyway, I was alone again for a little bit. Then two guys and a girl walked by speaking in French and pointing at the harbor. I thought it was interesting that they were speaking French right after I had heard that mother speaking in Russian. They did their sightseeing and moved right along. Five minutes later, a guy and two girls walked by, to take a picture, and they spoke Spanish the entire time. Suddenly I felt out of place thinking in English. But then again, there was a few minutes by myself in which I was reading some of the dialogue in my book aloud with a British accent (it takes place in England).

Meanwhile, a blimp, a plane, a helicopter, and a seagull all flew in opposite directions in front of me at the same time. It felt orchestrated, but really really cool.

There are lots of thoughts and my internet is back, so I'll be writing more. But I have to eat now - I spent the day over-caffeinated and underfed.